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Taylor Armstrong appeared in her first TV interview since breaking her silence on Entertainment Tonight following last night's traumatic Real Housewives of Beverly Hills episode that featured her having an emotional breakdown after an attempted detente between Taylor and Camille Grammer failed.

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"I was a train wreck," Taylor said on Watch What Happens Live regarding her "you have NO IDEA what she's put me through" emotional explosion.

"I was a little drunk, absolutely – and a little crazy, but I was dealing with so much and my biggest fears were unraveling. For me, it's as if I lived my life holding a boiling pot with a lid on top that was starting to bubble over. There was nothing more I could do. I was losing my mind and I was truly terrified."

For Taylor, the fear stemmed from Camille's on-camera admission that she was an abused woman. "I had told Camille about my situation in private in January, we were not filming the show," Taylor said. "I was living in a dangerous situation and having that exposed to the nation, was starting to really unravel me. I had not anticipated her bringing it up on camera. And therefore, potentially making my situation more dangerous."

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She added, "I felt completely betrayed. For me, admitting I was being abused on national television was a step I never thought any of my friends would take. I was so stunned by it. I couldn’t get past it. And I was scared."

As for the currently airing season, which was filmed before her husband Russell committed suicide in August, Taylor says it's been absolutely traumatic to relive. "It's been horrifying to watch. I see a woman who is out of control, a woman who is terrified and a woman who is clearly about to go off the deep end. I'm just thankful to be here with my daughter and that I'm getting healthier every day. That I'm able to sit here with you as opposed to being in a more dire circumstance."

Taylor also spoke about daughter Kennedy, and revealed that she's doing much better today as well. "She was with me on the night that I arrived at the house and discovered my husband," Taylor said through tears. "She knew something went bad and the first thing she said was, 'Did daddy so something dumb?' We talk about it a lot. She doesn't understand it, I try to explain it to her … but it hasn't been easy. We each have good days and bad days but we have amazing friends and loved ones around us. We're very fortunate."